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Same Old Song
The torn remain
of what was plain
waves now ore frozen ground,
in winds that blow
cold ice and snow
and other feelings down.
There isn’t much
left in a touch
to calm the trembling hand.
For winter’s chill
falls colder still
in cloak across the land.
The settled dust
and cankered rust
guard safe against the grain,
while fading dim
from deep ...
Friday 15th March 2024 9:11 pm
The Clock
There’s a heart that beats
and a clock that chimes.
Moments pass as they both keep time.
Opportunities lost again.
Words don’t flow from an idle pen.
Deeds don’t come from an idle hand.
Seeds won’t grow in a barren land.
Something stalks me, something’s there.
Something haunts my every prayer.
Aggravation, life slips by.
Desperation, sleepless nights.
...Monday 11th March 2024 5:42 pm
Almost There For You
Sailed an ocean just to reach you,
passed through a hurricane or two,
hit land to find a ring upon your hand.
I was almost there for you.
Crossed a continent to find you,
every hardship I passed through,
at ocean’s rim you were there with him.
I was almost there for you.
Does it pay to lay your heart on the line,
or believe that true love’s true?
Now I spend my time traveling on, I’m...
Saturday 9th March 2024 3:03 pm
Piece That Is Missing
The piece that is missing
is the piece of my heart
that I threw like a stone
when our love fell apart.
Without looking I threw it
as far as I could.
Now I’m stuck with the fact…
that I’ve lost it for good.
Monday 4th March 2024 4:15 pm
Exit
It’s finally the day to come,
blood mixing in.
Flows like a river
through oceans of sin.
Long past the point
where the numbness was new.
Long past believing
that anything’s true.
Steel against flint,
only flash in this night.
Desperate to see
but it only ignites,
the gasoline soaked
twisted rags in my soul.
No way to stop it
and nowhere t...
Saturday 24th February 2024 1:32 am
A beautiful curse
Your presence in my life was a gift
for you showed me what I had missed
The deepest emotions, you showed me they exist
A love so deep is a beautiful curse
for the harder you love
the deeper it hurts
So now I find myself in agony
Learning to live with missing what once was
As well as never knowing what could've been.
Robyn Holmes
scribbles of a broken heart
Friday 9th February 2024 5:21 pm
I think about you
I think about you
I think about you on the good days
when everything is going well
I want to share them with you, celebrate
The first that comes to my mind is your name
I think about you on the bad days
when everything feels a little too much
I could use your hugs, your touch
Your warmth is the very thing that I need
I think about you in the moments in between
In the secon...
Thursday 8th February 2024 8:46 pm
Final Farewell
My Darling,
You hold so much sadness in your eyes
I can almost touch the scars of your soul and cry
The twin flame I once saw in you
Turned into a stranger
Whom my heart cannot recognise
Someone I never knew
Thinking of life without you
Makes me feel as though
I will never see summertime again
And the coldness of an eternal winter fills me with woe
No matt...
Sunday 4th February 2024 12:23 pm
Monster in the Mirror
They say that twin flames go through periods of separation
And this I know to be true
For you were right, we did need this time apart
However, I am praying it doesn’t last
I needed to discover me and you needed to discover you
Because even though we are one, our souls have still been split in two
And we needed to work on ourselves separately
In order to reunite anew
...
Wednesday 24th January 2024 2:08 pm
Whispers of Loneliness
Wearing a smile, but it's just a show,
Loneliness whispers, won't let go.
In the crowd's noise, a silent plea,
Heartache murmurs, longing to be free.
Behind laughter's mask, a tale untold,
Loneliness unfolds, a story unfolds.
They feed on tears, a bitter taste,
In solitude's grasp, emotions embraced.
Moving with shadows, the soul steps back,
Loneliness stay...
Monday 15th January 2024 4:58 pm
Whispers of Woe
Ye Universe heal my heart
For my grief is tearing me apart
Why can’t everyone see I’m trying
They only pay attention when I’m crying
I’ve had such a hard life as it is
When will I ever get to experience bliss
For all I have ever known is pain
To be told I only have myself to blame
What did I ever do so wrong
To deserve a life so tortured and so long
Is despair...
Friday 17th November 2023 9:38 am
Regret
Regret
Regret
A thousand times regret.
Choices made,
that cannot be unmade.
Stupid things,
done again and again.
Foundations
laid for a useless life.
Coming to an end for some time.
At least death will be done right.
Kind of hard to screw that up.
(Photo taken by poet. It's the Pennsylvania hills behind Frank Lloyd Wright's Kentuck Knob House.)
Monday 30th January 2023 3:59 pm
December Birthday Blues
December Birthday Blues
You've created in me this
despair of lonliness..
My voice trembles,
tears fill my eyes,
I don't want u to see me..
I would'nt stand your coldness,
not again!
All the love you used to give me,
no longer there...
These feelings of crying..
can't take it,
I'm not that strong!
Saturday 17th December 2022 1:39 am
Close My Eyes
Sad at a bar. sitting on the deck. watching
boats drift by;
finished my grouper sandwich; sipping on my lemon water
wondering --
So close to your lips, how did I get so far away in your mind?
I told you a long time ago, you would never have to yell but
I do.
Today was a break,
after a break,
after a break. C...
Tuesday 12th July 2022 3:47 am
Bitter
Have you ever felt
in the morning
You feel waking up
but
Your eyes are closed
and
Suddenly all you can think of
is
There is no one to trust anymore
except
Yourself...
and
You finally transform
into
Yourself...
For the ignorance they gave you
For the hurt they caused you
There's nothing better now
to be by
Yourself...
Thursday 4th March 2021 10:54 am
I Don't Belong
The evening, the cold, the rain
The lost, the pain, chained
My grief, your game, explained...
A subtile combat
Drained...
************
February 2021
Sunday 28th February 2021 5:46 pm
Letting go of what’s died
You were never mine
Quick witted but with a weak spine
Your actions are predicted
conditional love that’s bound to die in time
How you act has me sickened and I refuse to loose my mind
Wednesday 25th November 2020 3:33 pm
self obsessed
You love calling me crazy too
Lying holding your breath you’re turning blue
As I start calling out your other muse
Said I’m the only one that you choose
Feeding me another empty excuse
You swung giving me the ugliest bruise
Wednesday 25th November 2020 3:23 pm
no one wins..
Two lovers lost in a sea of endless rough waves
Detatched from shore and far off course
Fighting fits to which both enslaves
Drift away from the loving warmth of true lovers heart
Moment by moment words rising
Tearing eachother apart
Fights enclosed happiness feelings faded flow
Bitterness deepens soon you'll be reaping
The actions you began to sew
Arrows whistle through...
Sunday 22nd November 2020 8:36 pm
BLURRED LINES
i used to have so many regrets
each volatile ,invading my mind with no consent
i dont know how we got here
to 3am conversations to whatsapp calls
to less celing staring and more dreamfilled snores
i used to be so conflicted constantly questioning myself , my choices
i have yet to do the same when it comes to you
im certain,doubtless,fearless and oddly enough thats what scares ...
Thursday 1st October 2020 11:50 pm
in your flood
one step out the door
one step forward
one step closer
to the flood
one step backward
one step in reverse
one step away
from drowning
a punch to the gut
and tears streaming,
more than the smiles
more than the ‘i love you’s
and how many more years like this
how much can i take like this
i agreed to ever after
but this now, these lows
i can do without
i barely survive the cr...
Saturday 12th September 2020 1:08 am
Deconstruction Site
How many times do we take the leap
Before we realize we’ve jumped in too deep
How many times do we stop to realize
We need to protect our insides
How many times does this heart have to break
This love, you too shall take
He was the one,
Healing the deepest scar,
The wound he created,
Only to tear it open again
As he twists the knife
Churning everything inside of me
Monday 6th July 2020 5:35 am
Pinning Hearts
You are what I wanted so much but couldn’t have
What I had to let go of no matter how scared I felt about losing
You crawled up on my pavements
And grew on my walls stirring me up
Deciphered my moods and thoughts with your beautiful brain
Spoke to the inner me of your intentions
I miss the invisible force between us
I cherish those little moments
How simple your words were ...
Monday 8th June 2020 1:46 am
What I'm Feeling
The dejection
of disappointment.
The bitterness
from betrayal.
The misery
of mourning.
The sadness
from shattering.
The agony
of anxiety.
The dolor
from depression.
The torture
of trauma.
The heaviness
from heartache.
Backdated 1/10/19
Wednesday 9th October 2019 7:14 pm
Violet Violence
I loved you like I loved storms. I was fascinated by every strike of lightning and each gust of wind, the sheer power of it, the wind I mistook for passion and the ferocity I believed was simply something to pass with the movement of clouds.
Little did I know the damage caused to my being every second I caught myself standing in its wake.
I loved you far more than you deserved. I loved you a...
Monday 12th August 2019 5:53 am
Missed Something
I've tried to write this
Fifty times over
Each time I get closer
But somehow still miss
I miss something
In what I want you to know
I miss something
In saying I don't want to let go
If this is goodbye
Then say it now
I'll give up the fight
I'll let you walk out
And forever
I'll miss
You
I've loved you like no other
I've never held...
Tuesday 25th June 2019 2:44 am
perfect
A perfect match - strike anywhere.
A perfect love - what happened there?
I walked away without a care,
but turned and tripped on your last stare.
Monday 24th June 2019 11:01 am
I loved you
I loved you
From the moment I saw you
Black beanie
Brooding
Cigarette hanging from the side of your mouth
Dripping in hurt and cynicism
You
My imperfect reflection
We spent days in bed
Hid from the world
Made our own
You were the light in my darkness
The first to really see me
The first to truly love me
What you gave me I'd never had before
...Friday 17th May 2019 9:26 pm
she stood still
sometimes i wonder how we got to this point
a point where you wonder whats the best
a point where you want to restart and forget
because i thought we're doing our best
giving all the love we have left
but look at us now,
one has left and doesnt have any regrets
and the other one stood still, full of questions.
shes waiting, waiting and reassuring him that she believes.
...
Wednesday 24th April 2019 11:12 am
Dear Ezra Bebot,
The first time I saw you, your mouth held no words.
I would take you out and watch you marvel at the birds.
Your awkward waddle would bring me smiles.
There was peace in my life holding you as we walked for miles.
The screaming, the crying, the testing,
The laughing, the hugging, the learning.
As I helped you grow, and loved every moment.
Even the ones that involved your excrement.
Saturday 13th April 2019 9:19 pm
Letting go
Let me tell you this
a secret lies within oneself,
many dare to dismiss.
Alas,
Loving one who is broken,
Creates complication
And bliss.
A problem to handle,
That is not ones own.
A secret to help bury,
Yet not to hold on ones own.
The truth is set free,
When their true self is recognized
By the one who had the power,
All along on the ...
Wednesday 27th February 2019 8:31 am
Battlegrounds of the Heart
And all at once
We revisted the site
Where the wounded lie
We examined their injuries
Doing our best to determine
If they were fatal
It requires a detached rationale
It laughs in the face of pure emotion
For life is smarter than you think
Forever your opponent
Even when pretending
To be a friend
For life brought me you
Star crossed
And ...
Thursday 17th January 2019 2:40 pm
Child robbers
I wished you did not miss me because the though of that hurts to the core
I wished i did not ever have to feel the pain,
of you not missing me even more.
I think back to our times at home
your first memories of being so small in my arms
The hours i spent watching you dream
Wishing and hoping i could be the best mother i could be
for you to get the best life you deserve from me.
Thought...
Tuesday 11th December 2018 2:12 pm
Find Me A Denim Jacket
Find me a denim jacket,
That's strong enough to carry my heart,
And long enough to button me up,
From my nose,
Down to my index toes,
To hide away my protruding bones,
Starved I am of a lovers dream
I lost myself to a nasty scheme
And though my love fell out of me,
My heart still craves some more it seems...
Wednesday 14th November 2018 8:34 pm
This heart
Where the hell are you?
I've been waiting for what seems like my whole life
I can't get it out of my head
I thought by now I'd be someone's wife.
Nothing turned out how I thought it would
Is it for the best, for the greater good?
Why is the heart such a fragile thing?
With every rejection I feel the sting.
I look in the mirror but it ain't me looking back
...
Saturday 6th October 2018 12:40 pm
Floor of Lava
You say a little too much,
And I think a little too much;
Jumping to my own
Conclusions
Stone to stone.
Our love,
Like a floor of lava,
But I’m the only one who gets burned
Tuesday 31st July 2018 2:35 am
Standing
Where do I stand in your life
is it beside you
or is it out of sight
if I walk away
will you be the one
to come get me that day
I might be leaving and won’t come back
so don’t realize you want me
when my heart has already turned black
I wish it was easy to say
but am I where I stand
like the other day?
Monday 12th March 2018 3:40 am
Deeps ocean
Deeps Ocean.
The feelings you erupted in me were too immense for me to handle,
the pushing,the pulling
being torn
left and right
up and down.
ANY direction you ordered,
I listened and bowed in shame like the fucking bitch you told me i was.
I fucked you the way you wanted me too, like the whore you called me everytime i didnt answer my phone.
I ran to you as so...
Friday 2nd March 2018 1:50 am
Memories
When it was discovered, we recoiled
Out of doubt, out of fear
We focused on the opinions of others
Instead of what we thought
When I let our secret fly free,
I was shown acceptance and love
Hope blossomed like a cactus flower
It would be okay.
He was capricious, of two minds
One day yes, the next was no,
He produced a name, but renounced his love
I proce...
Tuesday 20th February 2018 12:17 am
Driving Through Cromwell Hill Road
A house is built from bricks and glued
Together to create shelter renewed
A skeleton protecting organs hidden inside,
Waiting for a family to live and reside
Seasons pass and storms blow by
Damage accrues despite how hard it tries
To keep flawless and perfect, societies dream
From beauty to beast, becomes unseen
"I am ugly, marred, broken- why bother trying?"
My purpose is futile, my fut...
Tuesday 13th February 2018 8:09 pm
She
She,
is not yet an old soul. Such apprenticeship has not yet begun.
Studiously she watches as you cite your second hand wisdom.
Bested by her innocence, such familiar nostalgia withers like the thick layer of dust it hides beneath.
Shaken and bruised like brine against an ice cube, the vermouth of your ideals is poured into an ill fitting glass.
Left feeling dirty you turn to d...
Saturday 23rd December 2017 6:57 am
Snow Day
Snow Day
One cannot simply ignore this
Superstitions do not normally get my attention
That is, until premonition fruition
Hindsight and all
Yet while the bayous have snow
Rain taps my window pain
I cannot ignore this sign
This message
I will not see snow this year,
Perhaps for many years to come
Snow is too pure to be touched by my tainted skin
Yet still I pray ...
Friday 8th December 2017 10:47 pm
No Guarantees
{No Guarantees}
There's no guarantees
that you actually ever
loved me at all
And
There's no guarantees
that you was even
worth my tears over
these year's
And I'm not gonna cry
and I sure as hell ain't
gonna shed no more
tears for you since
you left me to be with
her and tore my world
apart while breaking and
wreckin...
Wednesday 6th December 2017 11:02 pm
My Forever Sleeping ? Angel Daughter Lily
{My Forever Sleeping ? Angel Daughter Lily}
My forever sleeping angel daughter Lily as her eyes became to heavy to hold open any longer because she heard Jesus calling her home so she cried out one last time and took one big gasp of air into her tiny lungs and then she was gone and now me or her daddy's life isn't never gonna be the same because we don't have beautiful our little Lily...
Wednesday 6th December 2017 9:35 pm
He left
He left
He left behind his broken wife and his scared son
He left
He left us cold, all alone with no one
He left
The vows, they meant nothing
The promises, broken
I just wish we meant something
More than just empty words spoken
I cried for days at a time
My young son wiped every tear
Leaving us was a crime
And now, it's been 1 year
An...
Sunday 1st January 2017 11:32 pm
Girl of My Dreams
Tally one for days past,
At present still remembered.
Nil for today, at last,
For your presence it still lingers.
My dreams are full of you,
And In my waking hour, you echo,
There is naught for me to do,
Save hope you let me let go.
I stay awake at night,
Because when sleep comes it seems,
I must concede my plight.
You are the girl of my dream...
Tuesday 16th December 2014 5:47 am
Cold Nights
Friday 12th September 2014 6:46 pm
A Poem Making no Attempt to be Good
Now I know what they sing about.
Love songs, break ups, heart aches, make ups.
Every inch now rings true
Now my blue heart is squeezed and strained through the pain
That I might not end up with you
My body in revulsion.
I want to fall, cry, throw up or I may choke
You've broken
my heart and I've broken it too
But I love you so much and I don't know what to do...
But write bad poetry, d...
Tuesday 8th July 2014 1:22 pm
11
She screams
A sound that penetrates
The hearts of all around.
She breaks
Her heart explodes
She crumbles to the ground.
A child
Her childhood stolen
With the burst of a pea.
Her mother
Gone forever, gone
Her brain not meant to be.
What now?
The love stops here
A cry for help.
Don't leave
Come back to her
The child needs yo...
Friday 27th June 2014 8:52 pm
Broken Alone
The trees, so hidden well by thickened wood,
While senses hide behind the deep despair,
He, ridiculed by those that can’t but should
And persecuted by those that once did care.
As fingers point and clone the loaded gun;
They choose a victim crying on his knees,
To watch him beg for solitude, in one
And disregard his perennial pleas.
The rights and wrongs of progress bliste...
Monday 22nd April 2013 5:28 pm
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