I feel like I am never going to be happy in my life 

I am never going to meet someone and fall in love 

I am never going to find true friends 

I love having one best friend, but without her, I just feel lonely in life 

she is literally my only friend in my life 

I cant talk to anyone else about why I am always so sad 

I am sad because I cant express my feelings more because I tell myself it is better to hide them 

I hate crying in front of people because they might think I am a freak for crying

when in reality, they have no idea what is going on 

i am not happy 

I cant remember the last time I was happy for a few straight days in a row