now, it'll be a repetitive cliche if i blame you for every wrong i have committed

and even more dull if i question your existence 

another repetitive drone preaching atheist beliefs

but i do have a few questions

 

if you give me an audience i wouldn't waste any enquires 

i know famine and poverty is band but it never effected me

global warming is pretty big but i never had to swim away from the polar ice caps

and it's not your fault for my oafish mishaps

 

 

but i want to know why me god?

hang on wait, i know i'm contradicting myself

and it's not on purpose to try and catch you out

i mean i know your clever, you're God for christ's sake

 

why did you have to kill my rabbit?

he was only a couple of years old and only ever harmed carrots

i used to throw treats at him and watch him scuttle from the sides of the garden

but one night you scared the living shit out of him. he had a heart attack and died

 

why did you have to give my granddad a blood clot?

i know he didn't die but imagine me as a kid chasing the footsteps of an uncle

rushing to see him suffering on a hospital bed

you saved him but shit did you give me a fright

 

why did you have to blind my grandma?

i hardly see her enough

is this some sick metaphorical joke

i don't see her enough and now she literally can't

 

now me asking you these questions makes me realise how lucky i am

my family are all alive and well but maybe you're leaving it

a great crescendo of agony

old enough to realise how terrible the occasion is

leaving me to slump into a coma of sorrow and depression

but i thank you for the luck i have now

but god answer me this

when will my downfall come?

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Note: I tried to imagine what an audience with God would be like, what questions i would ask me. This poem made me realise how lucky i am not to have a close relative pass away. Now i'm worried  because i know that day is going to slowly creep up on me  .