I’ve never felt closer to the birds.
Closer to my fears Closer to the curb.
falling down, picking myself back up
I’m not used to this, I was expecting the crash
Suddenly I feel the spine growing in my back
Arching my neck, lifting my chin up
Slowly but surely, I’m starting to not give a fuck.

I feel the sunshine embracing my face
Telling me I’m gorgeous, never sounding fake
Realer than you ever were, realer than the lies you spun to me
Like the spider that spun you in his web
Come on face your fears baby!
Let someone else love me, better than you ever did
You know I’m worth it, you know I’m better now
You won’t admit it, you never admit when you’re wrong

I’ve never felt closer to the birds, They sing their songs of the past in Unison I think of you & why we couldn’t last
Why we never began, Why i never should’ve given you that  second chance
Or the first
Trial & error? More like trial & reverse.

I’ve never felt closer to the birds
& if they pick me apart with all of my words;
The secrets I’ve told you… It wouldn’t be anything new.
I’m used to betrayal, you trained me well
To be as hopeless as you.

But now you fall back, like a shadow
I have my face to the sun
The spine in my back, is fully intact
“The damaged are strong, because they know they can survive.” I’m sure i told you this once, or twice
You didn’t believe me, you tried me on for size
Showed me all of my flaws, Magnified.

& now I know what the birds were trying to say…
“face your fears, turn away.”
I’ll take your advice this time, I won’t second guess your screams
I always gave you more credit then you asked for
I never thought you would use it against me
Like all your dirty secrets still hidden under my bed
I’d set this whole room on fire, if I thought it would take away this regret
But instead I’ll leave quietly, Vengeance hidden under my breath.
“Face your fears baby, you've got nothing left”.