Inner Conflict

 

There are times when I am enveloped in a dense cloud of unknowing

In a state of utter and inner solitude I become transfixed

The atmosphere becomes pressurised and intense

A fearful beat of a strange sound emits a cascade of anxiety

I become inert, highly aware of where and who I am

Peaks of prominent unassailable mountains pervade my vulnerable soul

and blocks my path to freedom

Armies of doubt pass by to salute and warn

I cannot break out as the cloud bars my escape

It is worse at night when even the moon is absent

I tremble in a net of eternity and uncertainty, held captive of my own fears

Held against my will yet I am complicit with it

Only the light will dispel this unendurable night of anguish and torment

An aperture of light soon bursts forth and banishes the gloom

to reveal tranquility and calm.

I see flowers with radiant colours in their pristine beauty

Then the demons of darkness fade away to the dungeons of their own creation