Everyone feels distant

All my feelings are so inconsistent

My moral compass is broken

People love me but I don't love them

Where is the connection? 

I don't understand 

I'm not strong but I'm strong enough

I'm not smart but I'm smart enough

I'm not the worst but am I good enough?

You give me everything even when I don't deserve it

When I run away you hold me tighter

When I extinguish the fire you pull out a lighter

Ignite a flame is life just one big game?

How much can you handle before you walk away? 

Will someone come in and swoop you away?

Take the pain that I inflicted away?

Will they wash your insecurities and doubts away? 

Am I destined to stay or be washed away?

Am I selfish for holding on to you?

Am I wasting your time?

The hole in the wall is only getting bigger

The gap between us is getting thicker

Should I build a bridge?

Or should I blow it up bigger?