Reader discretion advised. “The Curse and the Cure”
I hurt for you,
Then, now, and my whole life through.
I hurt for him, her and the next,
For last time and this time, I’m a motherfuckin wreck.
No body knows that shit but me,
That this butterfly ain’t as free as she’d like to be.
I’ve lived this way,
It’s why I sway and sway,
I dance, in a trance,
In the dark, feel the expanse.
I've never had a choice,
But I’ve learned to keep this poise.
I hide your pain, his pain, her pain,
Close my eyes, breathe it out, keep me sane.
Take it easy, take it slow,
Take my life where it wants to go.
I love this shit, that shit, this pain shit,
I submit to it.
Last time, this time, next time, it won’t be the last time.
I don’t need no one to understand,
This pain right here is God’s plan.
I love love,
My body fits it like a glove.
I know I hurt you, him and her,
I’m the curse and the cure.
I can’t lie to you,
My body vibes with you.
But I hurt you yesterday, and today and tomorrow,
Damn this pain, I didn’t want your sorrow.
But I feel you...
I do....
But him and her, I feel them too.
It’s not fair to you,
Life and it’s hidden menu.
I’m sorry I can’t make you feel whole,
But please know, this is my life role.
Maybe next lifetime no one will love me,
I can be that free ass plum tree.
But shit who am I kidding?
It would be fitting,
That a plum fruit fucked Adam and Eve.
I’ll never get reprieve.
So I don’t wanna ask, but I have to,
Can you love me and let him and her too?
I’m the Ex-factor
How can anyone not love me?
Cause I love you and him and her,
Today, tomorrow, forever, the curse and the cure.
hardwiredtometallica
Thu 8th Apr 2021 09:11
There are factors I definitely don't understand but that's because it's your life, your pain you talk about. I love that. I love that for you. Painfilled poems always give me some kind of feeling of relief. It makes it better somehow. I hope it does it for you too.
Nevertheless, it's a really beautiful creation. It has a good flow to it. And most important: you convey your pain, even when I don't fully know what you mean, in such a well written, well expressed way that I still feel like I know your pain. I can relate and read that poem with an aching but warming heart. ?