I think it's to let it go 

So I've lost control again
Wish I could tell you that my soul was proper
I sold it along this dusty road
I saw godlessness in everyone
To cut a good kid without fear

The road to hell was built on good intentions
I only felt so alone without her love
With her, you can't be a good man 
Without her, you can't be happy 
So pick before the world blames you 

I wish you a good life 
Nowadays I don't hate you 
Don't take that as me inviting you back into my life
I am the ghost in your mind 
The child you abuse and left for dead

I'm sorry but I don't need this hatred anymore
It's pathetic and pointless to hold onto
I've seen the end it's not in the hands of anymore now
I've lost control but only in the time of man 
I can only blame myself for the actions I make

I wish you a good life 
Nowadays I don't hate you 
Don't take that as me inviting you back into my life
I am the ghost in your mind 
The child you abuse and left for dead

Don't hold on to the ghost in your mind 
I don't see a light anymore 
I don't see darkness I only see gray 
I don't see darkness I only see gray