I've been working on this song for days
How could you use me like this
I got used to the abuse that you gave me
You don't have to tell me I'm a mess
I've been a mess since I was a child

I should stop falling in love with you
So tell me I'm a sad sack of shit
Tell me I'm worthless
Everyone knows that's the reason
I fell in love with you
You remind me of my mother

My brain tricked me into
Believing that self-loathing is love
I'm bleeding again
My heart can't hold this
I stopped taking my medicine again

I've been a mess since I was a child
Take the love I had for you away
I don't want it anymore

I should stop falling in love with you
So tell me I'm a sad sack of shit
Tell me I'm worthless
Everyone knows that's the reason
I fell in love with you
You remind me of my mother

You were my therapy
Now I"m fighting the urges to call you up
Here's my last lie I didn't see it coming
God I"m feeling you now
This still hurt after 12 years it's now over