I can not depend on my moods, 
This is why I depend on food.
Good days, bad days, the pain stays,
The food I eat takes me away.

I used to be fat and then went slim,
Now the fat creeps back in.
Self esteem is what I lacked,
Food is slowly making me fat.
The mirror is no friend of mine,
The image I see is not mine. 

The dismal day portays my mood,
and then 'BOOM' I run back to food.
They say beauty is on the inside, 
Why is mine so hard to find?

This journey seems so long, 
one bad mood, it all goes wrong. 
I can shine brighter than the sun, 
But deep down I am broken and not having fun!

21/8/2021