Late sleep has been deprived,

Most nights are spent on trying to decide what to do next,

What is best for me or worst, planning moves.

Going through a list of movies, I'm barely interested in.

Look at the ceiling try to look in my heart, 

And find what I concealed away,

and try to find something to feel about.

And think about my doubts.

Am I alive or just living? I don't know anymore.

Question my value on this earth,

Because lately it seems to be cheap.

Search through the web and self-diagnose my health,

Lately my mental and emotional health has been in question.

Asking myself “is this my last breath?” “Is my time done?”.

Aches of all kinds start to rock my boat.

Paranoia is kind of a fix now, 

surviving the days and regretting the nights.

Forgetting that my days are borrowed,

Shark loans I can't escape.

Premeasured time with an unknown tape,

Lately I seem to be out of my prime state.

I look at the way things are happening to me,

Like I am the prey for another primate it's just pandemonium.

My life in a year turned for the worst