She asked me

What is it like?

I replied 

You know

Like when you cant swim and you start to drown

So you're drowning right?

But its like everyone else around you can breathe

They seem to be floating on their back with ease

Everyone else has their head above water

Keeping afloat

And even some of the fortunate ones

They have their own boat

Not even touching the water

But see

You're still drowning

You want to beg and plead for help

But instead you just ask for a little assistance

For someone to throw you a life raft 

But nah maybe you can learn to swim

With just a little persistence

Because everyone has their own problems

You gotta help yourself, right?

I mean you've already lost a majority of your breath

But fuck it you still got a little bit left

Enough to bring your head above water and 

Miraculously learn the back stroke

Swim right past that boat

While flipping those privileged folks off with the bird

They're just watching the show

They didn't try to help you any how

You just keep it moving because you already know

People are naturally foul

Silly for thinking anything different

Could of possibly occurred 

Silly for you to hope that those folks would have

Passed the point of being perturbed 

Like ain’t nobody show this little girl how to swim?

You're wishing that they'd go off the whim of

Oh! She needs help! 

And jump right into the crippling water that has you paralyzed

Maybe you should've gasped for air a little bit harder

But No, fuck that!

Wasting something you don't even have

For them to realize a little too late that it matters too

Your breath, Your life

You're not biting the bullet for strangers to

Weep over your grave

When in life to them

You wasn't even worth their time to save

Give me my flowers while I am alive

SAVE ME SOS

You yelling it with your last breathe 

SAVE ME SOS

You look past that boat and on to the sky

SAVE ME SOS 

You are saved my child

Speaks back a voice so warm and comforting

You forget you needed air to breathe

Because she breathed into you 

And she put all of your fears to ease

All the questions

Where have you been?

Why must I struggle?

What is it like to be able to breathe?

What is it like to be able to swim?

All those questions dissipate 

As your new journey is to anticipate

The sweet feeling of release 

From the murky pond that has held you captive

For all these years

The kiss of Gaia removes your soul 

From it's tired voyage 

Your only peace

Is your final peace

As you're laid to rest

This is what it is like my dear

To be depressed