Torment is

Our bodies together
Soft skin on soft skin
Entangled tightly
Spooning
Your breath heavy on my neck
A kiss goodnight on my back
My lips
start to relax
Warmth begins between my hips
Pulsating
Mind racing
My lips
start to drip
My desire
A scented aroma
Fantasies begin to play
Body begging to be played

A silent moan

A loud resentment 

Don't let it feel good, I remind myself
Knowing
Your mind is on anything else
Your breath
Indifferent
Your kiss
Inattentive
Your lips
Unaroused

Daily rejection takes a toll 
My body remembers
My skin gets harder
My mind turning off
My receptors blocking

Eventually, irreversibly