I dig into my memories

looking for that feeling

 

I was happy, I was sad

I was caring, I was upset

 

But the beauty of being in love

It’s the only one I cannot recall

 

The way I looked at the world

That was different I am sure

 

Something in the background

Changing my days, my actions

 

I close my eyes

one image comes to my mind

 

A boat in the middle of a lake

Where I could jump whenever I was scared

 

To avoid myself

To avoid the grey.