Please, just listen

I know what I say scares you

to so calmly and confidently call myself trash

Don’t speak up

I know you mean well

and you are right

It is not healthy to see myself as I do

but just listen

I don’t want to go anywhere, anymore

but an offhand comment

on how I really shouldn’t hate myself

will not undo 14 years of brainwashing

myself into caring so little about

Myself.

 

It’s going to be scary

to hear me talk about touring myself

about my distain for my own emotion

to be told my daily routine

consists of cowering and self-hatred

 

You know me already

you have seen the truth, a piece of it

my fear that holds me upright

all to keep you from being afraid

to keep your reality from crumbling

at the news you didn’t see coming

 

Please just hear me out

I am so desperate for you to see my soul

in the midst of all this mess

 

Just listen to me,

We have lots of catching up to do.