I must admit that I leave 'In Patient' still wondering, “Is she all right?”  I suspect that Erin Evans knows this, and what she wants to say is that this moment of humour, a distraction from the thing that is feared — a husband checking his wife’s heartbeat with a stethoscope — may, in the end, be far less important than the quirky observation.  Perhaps he is listening for the sound of a child’s pulse, perhaps he’s testing a new stethoscope, perhaps they are just playing “doctor”, perhaps, perhaps.

 

IN PATIENT

by Erin Evans

 

My husband holds the cold stethoscope to my chest —

his brown eyes averted, he listens carefully,

like someone taking directions on the phone

on how to save another life.

 

My heart is a room full of dispatchers

waiting for those strange-hour, desperate calls,

trained to keep you on the line while help arrives.

 

But what he says, smiling up at me,

after he’s listened awhile is,

“I think I can hear the ocean.”

 

And I know he must be right —

 

that what he hears is some small part

of the 95% of water on earth

yet to be explored,

that there is still no word for life

that doesn’t sound like the hush of the ocean.

 

American Life in Poetry is made possible by the Poetry Foundation, publisher of Poetry magazine. It is also supported by the Department of English at the University of Nebraska-Lincoln. Poem copyright ©2022 by Erin Evans, 'In Patient' from Nimrod International Journal. Volume 65. Number 2, Spring/Summer, 2022. Poem reprinted by permission of the author and the publisher. Introduction copyright ©2022 by the Poetry Foundation. The introduction’s author, Kwame Dawes, is George W Holmes Professor of English and Glenna Luschei Editor of Prairie Schooner at the University of Nebraska