Leverage
I’ve peeled off my skin for you
I’ve let you crunch my bones,
Consume beyond my flesh
Beyond my visceral tissues
Beyond my beating heart
Beyond the fibres of my being
Down to my soul
I’ve let you gobble up my spirit
I’ve let you slurp up my mind
Lick the lasting crumbs
of my emotions
Everything in me
Everything making me, me
All that constructs me
All that keeps me standing
Holds me up
Keeps me going
Is yours
It lies bare before you
It’s in your hands
I’ve given it to you
To do what you will with
I pray you keep me safe
I pray you protect me
I pray you nurture me
But nothing is certain
You could break me
I could shatter in your hands
The remnants of me could fall onto the floor
I don’t know how well I could be put back together
If at all
I just pray you keep me intact
I just pray you keep me at all
Because I’m yours now
It terrifies me
I usually keep layers back
Lock fragments away
In my safe of safety
But this time
I exploded into you
You asked me to jump
I shook my head
You asked
I edged
You asked
I inched
You asked
I finally leapt
Into your arms
You’re all that keeps me up here
You’re all that keeps me from the floor
And you could drop me
You could destroy me
I just hope
You don’t
That’s all
You have my all
So that’s all
You are my all
That’s all
Do you get it?
Alexandra Parapadakis
Tue 28th Feb 2023 19:15
Perhaps submission is a part of it. For me, it is the fear of being vulnerable, letting go, and letting someone fully have me and my love - because of all the risk that comes with that. It's a tale as old as time: people want true love and yet nobody wants to risk everything (especially guarded people like me) to experience it... but true love cannot be attained without risking everything. True joy requires sacrifice and sometimes pain. I guess a connection cannot be built without vulnerability and some sort of submission
P.S. I've switched my middle name and forename, just a preference