your heart is still breaking

I can hear the tissue tearing

metallic smell

and taste

the shock of a grenade

what in the fuck

that was

not okay

kids to think about here

lives at stake

future forever

a little house

piece of shit

nuggets for dinner

drink sometimes

it’s ok

smoke your smoke

die endearing

not this

fuck hell

let’s just

not pretend

this time

let’s part ways physically

still together

every second

what you say

what I do

you say yes

you say no

I mumble at them

I can’t look at them

you do the talking

put me to sleep

give me my meds

make me my tea

die aware