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I want so badly to just be me
but im scared of rejection
people not accepting me
see do people really accept me
or do they only accept their version of me
am i being my true self or am I playing a false version of me
Do people truly like the real me
or do they only like the parts of me they want to see
Do people really see me
or do they only accept the parts of me they want to see
I wonder if people can see the real me
or if I hide behind a false self
because im too scared to be that true self
the only one I see
If I show my true self
will people still accept me
what if they reject me
the true me only I see
Martin Peacock
Fri 14th Jun 2024 07:56
I can identify with this closely. I'm 66yo and going for my 1st of 2 interviews for an assessment of autism next week. I've spent all my life thinking the very thoughts you wrote about above. It's called 'masking', apparently - feeling like you never fit in and trying desperately to do so. I hope you find some resolution to your worries. No-one deserves to feel like that.