i know you’re disappointed in me

we always scream for hours and fight

until i decide to go out on a walk by the big oak tree

even though i can barely see the sidewalk at night

 

im starting to think that i can’t see in general anymore

i look in the mirror and see someone new

it’s like i’ve never seen her before

i wonder if you feel that way about me too

 

my therapist hasn’t really diagnosed me with anything

you tell me i should be honest to her

but i feel like a diagnosis will badly sting

every hour sitting in that office just feels like a blur 

 

i can’t see but and i can’t find my glasses

everything seems blurry

and it’s messing up my classes

the only thing i know how to do is worry

 

all the nice lady with the clipboard tells me is that basically im crazy

i already knew that though 

she makes me out to be lazy

i need her to help me in order to grow

 

why do people enjoy judging while watching me struggle to see clearly?

surely you wouldn’t judge someone with a physical disease

especially when it’s someone whom you claim to love dearly

just stop laughing at me please