Dear Mom and Dad,
I'm sorry
That's what I'm supposed to say
I'm sorry?
For what I don't know
It wasn't my fault
It wasn't me who did this awful thing
I was just a pawn
I was a thing
I was used
But here I am apologizing to you
I wanted to be all you think I am
The one you always trusted
The one you could depend on
To be okay
To never stray from the good path you laid
I'm the good kid
I'm the good kid.
I'm sorry I couldn't find the words
And that it happened all so fast
I'm sorry that I trusted someone
Who'd throw me out like trash
I'm sorry that I played at being grown
I'm sorry we were alone
I'm sorry that the one word no
Was lost on my tongue
And I froze
I'm sorry that I wanted to leave this place
But see I needed space
I needed air
I couldn't breathe there
I couldn't breathe anywhere
I was in pain
I needed to feel different pain
Or release it from my veins
To feel unchained
Be cut free
Fight pain with pain
I didn't
I kept it in
I didn't
But
I wanted to
I'm sorry that he broke me
And there's nothing you can do
I'm sorry that I wanted to die
I'm sorry that I don't have the strength to say this to you
But I'm still alive
Despite it all I made it out
Because you raised the strongest woman that ever
Lived
And for that I will never apologize
Because from you I learned to rise
To fight another day
So I'm here
A victim of my past
Broken
But
Okay
Hannah
Tue 17th Sep 2024 15:08
Chills, literal chills.