when i sit trying to figure out what to write 
my mind doesnt exactly go blank, 

 

but it does go silent, 
if thats even possible. 

 

it feels like its stopping me from 
what i need to be thinking about.

 

almost like it tries to draw me 
into doing something else instead. 

 

instead of thinking about family drama, 
or relationship confusion, 
and parenting frustrations. 

 

which saying all of that i could see 
if my mind thinks its looking out for me. 

 

it has been a crazy week and 
the stress levels i keep lying to 
myself about have been a little 
elevated. 

 

and you know what, 
im okay with that. 

 

people get stressed, 
life gets crazy, and 
things are sometimes 
out of our control. 

 

so if my mind thinks i need 
even the slightest little break 
to just be silent, 

 

i think i need 
to start listening.