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Life is lived moving forward
but we only understand looking back
If I looked back from the future, I know what I'd see: your love surrounding me with a fierce light of protection
a soft blanket of gentle cushioning balance of support and admiration
It held me up in my darkening despair and led me through
to the other side, where I made it
It does me no good
to deny the brightness of the light
your artistry makes my heart shine out loud until it bursts into song someone else is singing
oh i am letting you go
i (have) let you go
make no mistake
you have shrunken in my estimation as you shack up with music as I have stood up even taller
that is the sad aspect i mourn
to make the music, to be a writer of songs, words and sounds combines just so they cause others to dance, laugh, cry, love, be moved, increase understanding
i just have not replaced you
a poem will come that allows me that power perhaps
ah to summon the words that could finally write the way to see where my joy lies
if it's not in touching you
terrible trembling completiing pleasure
You touch me so deeply
You say I am welcome to my perspective
words that cut far beyond all the rest, which is (has been) substantial cutting
beyond being embarrassed; ashamed; humiliated
too forward; too slutty; too hyocritical
too foolish
making up stories and then believing them
Because I crave learning always, see,
quest for understanding,
make me better, wiser, kinder, smarter, more loving, more knowing, more pretty inside out
Now I am forced to wander in wonder instead
Yes I said I'd teach you to love all parts of you
HA! I already DO!!, you would say, of course you would
I can see the quality of parenting, grandparenting and siblinging that proudly poured into you
What I (meant) was
what another said so beautifully:
How bold one is
When one is certain of being loved.
That's all I (meant).
You (would have) been so sure of high regard and esteem, fellowship and loyalty and treasure
pleasure and pride and prancing and
so much poetry
I write in (past tense) to summon the power to see
where else my joy lies.
Perhaps on a boat
Pinnochio
Mon 30th Dec 2024 20:22
I'd love to know the inspiration behind this. The depth of this is frighteningly familiar. Stunning 🙌