I remain silent 

Even when my heart begs to speak 

I chose to hide 

Even though I want so badly to be seen 

I refuse love 

Even if its all I ever asked for 

I chase perfection 

Even if I claim perfection doesnt exist 

I give my heart 

Even though I know ill forever be broken by it 

I remember 

Even when I want the memories to fade 

I admit 

Even though not willingly 

I lie 

Even though all I ever wanted was to be understood