"Ambivalence"

I bear a flicker of light
Sometimes smouldering 
You can't see it
It is hidden somewhere in my soul
Blown here and there by the wind
Tossed to and fro like the sea
I tread paths
Winding like the curled body of a snake 
Dreadful, unspeakable 
It is like wonders.
They are like questions caught in between fallen teeth,
Entrapped, howling silently to the roof top
If ever words are enough,
If ever thoughts are able to imagine 
How life fades as it begins
Or how each day leaves despair for the next
Yet when tiredness encircles our whole
To sleep we must go
And shut our eyes from all that we are 
And never want to see.