Second best

Second best
You detest
The worst insecurity, a real test
Causes stress
Strenuous pest
Makes your value seem less
Destructive path
Souls wrath
Being second best is not a laugh
Brain snaps
Confidence collapses
Could see it coming, like simple maths
Want more
That's all
Don't want to be the last call
Feeling small
Esteem falls
All you want to be is more than the half of four