FOR FH

How can I sit here ignoring you?

You pull and pull and pull at my sinews

If I keep still for long enough will you go away?

If I answer you will you return tomorrow?

You pull at me to be noticed, you cannot scream,

I see you, you cannot see me. You are blind

I feel you but you can not know I’m here

Eyeless and dumb you know nothing of me

You don’t know me at all yet I know nothing

Of you. Apart from your pulling.

 

Your father was a Zeus

A monolith in a dry-stone wall

Hewn from the Celt and the mill.

A fixed point the substratum nadir

Of bedrock permanence.

 

I push you away, you can’t feel me pushing

You can only pull and pull and pull, pulling at me

I know what you want, you cannot have it.

Twelve years and I know.

I want you to pull me over. But I can not tell you

Nor ask you. I can only push as you pull

My push to compliment your pull.

I can not stop until you push me over my pivot.

You will not relinquish your wrench until you

Spin me off my fulcrum

And send me falling to your

Attraction on into your satellite envy

Where your heart has left its beat.