(for a friend who faded away)


Slowly closing down the world

No descendants to continue any genetic legacy
I’m slowly closing down the world
One by one they fall
The family and friends
Decay
No replacements
And skin cells
Another thousand lost today
The world, lonely, has been growing all my life
Ever since the day she departed
unannounced
And the ballroom
Had diminishing couplets
They were there and have been there
In my life
Some strangers
Some familiar
Ex lovers
Casual passers by
In the ball room
They diminish
And time is the fascinating egg clock
Upside down I am
Being filtered out
Turning my thoughts increasingly inward
Disconnected with the world
Not taking part
Becoming ever more an observer
Soon there’ll be nothing
Just my thoughts
And even they shall fragment
The bones shall be calcium
marrow
An unusual liquid
Exposed as I break apart
Seems embarrassed to be shown daylight
Spends all its time within
Holding me up
here becoming a leaf
Curling up at decayed edges
I know you do your best
Self repair, antibody, self repair amazing!
But my mind had failed the test
Of living alone, without her
The sphere is divided
Polarised and like moments
When I confided in her
silent
And all the personalities losing potency
Until I’m barely recognisable
Everyone is everyone else, of course
The soil shall soon be mine
Ill be a scattered offering
some next of far away kin
I’m sure the world will not disappear if when living I close my eyes
I’m sure any epitaph by parson or purser
Shall reimburse those tracing me
ashes shall be misplaced
fees be paid by estate
Psychological researchers may curse
As they arrive too late to save
Yet little did they know
I departed for a reason
The lonely world