Forever Tainted

 

Distained by the loss of
presence yet hopeful still

Of that one moment of redemption that makes every second worth it

Parting ways yet lost in those eyes that breath

If this is a dream I do not want to wake and feel the cold

Every grasp now a
nightmare haunts me

 

and the pain is at least real

 

 

In sleep I wait and dream of her lips

 

soft still yet mine and barely
brushing mine

Soon awoken by its cold sweat

 

and

 

pray to go back to rest again to feel
her

Devoured by questions left showered upon my shaking body

 

 

Forever Waiting....

 

 

To see your face again

 

 

 

I
close my eyes

 

to hear the whisper in your voice

To feel love divine would be the only way

I would give in and wake again

Deliver me from this dark and lonely hell 

 

I want to feel u in my
sleep if not awake

You are inside my dreams

 

and

my eyes keep me from wanting to see light

 

 

Begging grace from the
turmoil that I have treaded

Walk a little closer to the new beginning.

Foreseen in the blue and once again felt

By the touch of your lips dragging on mine

 

 

Again Forever waiting....

 

 

Shadowed by the unspoken
misery

 

I want to pretend nothing

Weary of the soon fallen angel

 

that has dropped me to weak to follow

My fingers bleed as they try to scratch their way up the stonewalls

I would give anything to feel her hair

 

brush on my cheek

 

when time stops
for nothing

 

 

Waiting…

 

 

 

 

Yet she watches and
lingers at nothing

 

cold with that blue stare

Reminding me of those superficial seconds

my blood quickens through my
veins in spite

 
I try to quiet my thoughts

asI beg for redemption

 

and I pray for silence

 

 

 

prayers unheard

 

 

Why must my eyes betray
me

 

when I want my soul to give?

 

again we are both

Forever tainted

 

 

Scared from this
discourse

 

I am soon frail

 

numbed by the passing scent

 

 

having been given its true descent

into the depths of unforgiven turmoil

seeking purity within the hold that binds me...

one that is forever killing me

forever seeking this distant veracity

 

 

Thoughts devour the
obscurity slowly slaying me

as I lay awake under shattering emotion

 

as nights rain pours upon this broken soul

 

and the many

taken years

The slight hint of a chill is even too familiar

 

 

Again Tainted

Why can't I wash this feeling away

 

as
my tears fall in the night rain

 

 

 
I cannot
destroy the memory

 

or

 

the scent that forever haunts me

I bury myself  within its misery of others

 

to feel that superficial warmth
between the legs of another
               
Have I completely lost myself to tainted love?