I will never let you know

 

They same time heals pain

Breaking up then seemed sane

But the happy memories last

The pain is shrouded in the past

 

I did not think

That when I hear your name my heart would sink

And now I feel a fool

As I try and play it cool

 

When I see you my resolve begins to flake

I try to hide it for my own sake

Yet I am haunted by the enormity of my mistake

The mistake I pretend I didn’t make

 

There must have been reasons

I thought about them over the seasons

I can’t help feel they were my own making

I cannot bear the toll it’s taking

 

I broke up ignoring my fears

As your cheeks were wet with tears

I said no when you begged me to try

And now I can’t remember why

 

I realise now the mistake I made

And now I wait for the pain to fade

Self-inflicted pain I don’t want to show

But I will never let you know