At the end of a day without a second’s rest

Exhausted from pressure and all sorts of tests

Normality is something I cannot seem to find

Trudging through the streets nearly blind from

the sunlight giving way, ending the cold wet day

If the people weren’t enough, the night comes along to kill

Even warm in bed death brings its’ chill

 

At the centre of everything we live

In our world like a catalyst with everything to give

Decisions to choose

But as much as I’d hope not, I’ve nothing to lose

If I were to die the trees would still grow

Earth would still spin and the moon will still show

With it’s ominous existence, a satellite empty

A space with no inhabitants, where I’d rather be

 

Maybe I’m the cause of everyone’s hate

And I deserve to die and feel the great

Pain that the people I love feel around I

I’m a selfish cunt that needs to fucking die

The despair the humiliation the trauma I’ve caused

Cannot be repaid by any of god’s laws

I’ve already pissed him off and denied his existence

Why can’t we just call it death without any judgement?

I need my pills…

 

At the end of a day feeling lovestruck and tired

I sigh to myself and endorse my sexual desires

I’ve dug myself into a hole too far and too deep

I have to live on, there’s no time to weep

Remembering those days where the streets felt so safe

It’s up to me to bring justice and make the world a better place

This is how I relax, I bring myself to danger

 

I love some people and hate a few

But natural attachments have nothing to do

With what’s happening right now to everyone else

People are dying and I have to help

If I were to die the children will still starve

Floods will still happen and killers will carve

Their favourite knives into the ones who accept

We cannot live in this world yet treat it with neglect

 

Maybe I’m here for a good damn reason

And I should kill those who are sentenced for treason

But as I go on and overcomplicate

She goes to class and I cannot wait

To see her beautiful face and engulfing eyes

They clear my hate, stress and obvious lies

As I walk past she gives me a hinting wink

I melt inside, fuck, I can’t think

What’s happening to me?