I wish I fell in love with you when I was five

When my eyes first opened to a life of

Meaningless routine and a system that killed

Inspiration but did not harm my hope

 

I wish I fell in love with you when I was eleven

When the world showed its opinion of me

Just being me, when I had to showcase my flaws without my consent

A flower picked out of the ground before it had the time to bloom

 

I wish I fell I love with you when I was nineteen

When I cared so much about that opinion of others

Flesh meant more than feelings, when I needed someone

To believe in

 

I wish I fell in love with you when I was twenty-one

When my world collapse and I needed to rebuild

When I started my journey to find out why and where

When I needed a confirmation that I was worth it

 

Now I hope you’ll stay, my past calls on you

My concerns will not need

When I first dreamt about you I knew it was over

Confess-----I won’t’ blame you