I need a friend,

Someone that wouldn't need my words to know something was wrong,

My body is weak from being strong,

I want to lay down my broken and lost thoughts,

I've lost track,

Of tears that I've forced to keep in, awaiting the second I get home to let them fall,

I need someone that would see past this wall,

The wall I've spent a year building up.

I can be surrounded by a load of people,

But by the smile I wear, none would know I’m in a battle,

In a battle with myself,

I’m not depressed, neither am I always sad,

But some days,

I just feel so bad,

So mad,

With no one to tell, so I turn to what I know best,

Thoughts, words, pen and a notepad,

This year has been hard,

Even harder that April has come around,

My head is above the water that I feel I’m so close to drowning.

I need a friend,

Someone that can just understand, just how I really feel.