Mostly because it's not real

I'm afraid to let myself trust

Mostly because I don't want to feel

That awful feeling I had when you left

I miss my happiness that you kept

The swiftness with which you swept

My youthful heart and made it whole

Bring back the hope within it that you stole.

 

I'm afraid to move on

Mostly because I don't know which way to go

I'm afraid to let myself be strong 

Mostly because strong means high and high gives potential for low

I don't want to fall again

You said you'd be there to catch me, but here I am on the floor again 

I don't want to be alone again

You said I'd never be lonely, then you left and now I'm on my own

Wondering, what will become of my disdain

Wondering, will I ever love again?