I tried to build,

On fraught foundations.

I tried not to rush,

But battled impatience.

 

I waited to see,

When she’d let me in.

If we were my future.

If she was our present.

 

And were things good?

And were things true?

Or were things fixed,

And broken too?

 

When all is given.

When all is done.

All is all,

We can give to some.

 

I changed my mind,

I changed without her.

Because we couldn’t,

Change together.

 

And when I talked,

I played my part.

 

It broke my heart.

To break her heart.

 

It started slow,

But in full speed.

I pushed, she pulled

I guaranteed.

 

She promised little.

I made too many.

Do I regret them?

Do I have any?

 

It feels like I should,

And I know that I must,

But things that were said,

Were things that I trust.

 

First time, false start.

Perhaps a lazy attempt,

To love without limits.

To love without pretence.

 

Or was I just foolish?

Or was I just young?

Should I have known?

From the start, we were done?

 

I tried not to feel.

Nearly tore me apart.

 

It broke my heart.

To break your heart.