I wish you would understand 
I wish you  knew I didn't need another man

would just let me love you
Just the way I am supposed too

I feel like I am going crazy
This love we got just so scary 

I sit around wondering  if your happy
If I turn you life crappie

If you want another's love
If you think I was a gift from above

I don't know of its me you want anymore
should stand back and watch you  walk out the door

I am scared you met someone else
Because of all the feelings being felt
I can't eat sleep or dream
I am hearing what you say but I don't know what you mean

You say your going to be alone
I don't know what's going on your not home

You day your just working and sleeping
I am so scared  your prolonging leaving

I understand  your working hard to get to me
But I just don't know how to believe 

 Your not here to hold me in your arms
I am so scared I look for red flags and Alarms

I run from you out of my own fear
I just don't know how to tell you I want you here

I am trying so hard to get out of this
I want so badly to feel your kiss

My head is just filled with doubt
I wish you would just help me spell it out

You say I am your one and only
I just feel lost scared and lonely

This is the hardest  relationship  I have ever had
 Its worth to me good or bad

Our connection  runs deeper then we know
It's past our skin and bones is our souls

Before you came into my life I never lived
Now I have dreams I see our kid

I feel like I am hanging in by a thread
I just can't get you outta my head

Is this real or am I crazy
I just love hearing you call me baby

Before you I didn't know this stuff was  existing
 I just didn't know what I was missing

I feel like you won't let me see you on Skype
Because you moved someone else into your life

If you would give some proof
Show me something calm my mind  give me the truth

I haven't seen you since may
It hurts me more then I can say

I am scared to death you moved on
Your just scared to tell me what's going on

I ask you things and you haven't  denied it
I am scared your with some one just trying to hide it

So it cause me to run in fear
Because my mind says you will never be here

I know I am driving you crazy too
But my fears are so bad it's true

When I ask show me I am the only one
Grab shake me don't let me run

Grab ahold of me don't let me go
I am scared more then you could ever know

You say that I don't know I am to blame 
I do know it's my thoughts I just can't tame

I talk to my friends because I am terrified
When I  don't here from you I think you got something to hide

I spend two hours writing you a note
You ignore me  for a day you think it's a joke

I pour my heart and soul out to you
You tell me that's not the bullshit  you need to do

I got the divorce  papers signed ready to go
I am scared you think it's not what I want so

I hate  it her with him
I wish I have my own home to live

My life's so complicated  it's true
I am trying everything to keep you near

If your doing this to motivate
Baby  it's just going to make me lose my faith

I met you it was so unexpected 
You came in and I felt new resurrected

You awakened  things deep within my soul
Things I didn't know exist  at all

I read about this thing in books
 I just didn't know the price it would have took

Fighting my ego and my brain
It's like riding on a run away train

The feelings I get  are scary as hell
 I feel scared crazy and unwell

It feels like your holding me tight
But my brain tells me it's not real it's out of sight

This soul and feelings are new to me
I am scared they just aren't what they seem

The 5d feelings are like when we first met again
That's the part thats got me  thinking 

Our connection  is so strong it's not work breaking
Baby my heart and soul is still yours for the taking

Don't give up so easily
Come home make me your wife ashley

Don't let me run away
Grab ahold of me shake me force me to stay

Come baby don't give up on us
Just because me brains driving me nuts