Weeping in hell


How can you say you love me some
Then turn around and ignore  me not even a hello

You lift me up to keep tearing  me down
Leave wondering why oh why your not around

I search for you with every single sound
I open up just to see you can't be found

I am wasting away  just  watching the clock
It's killing me your not even given me a thought

My pillow stained from all the tears
You could care less  about my fears

This endless  cycle of pain and sorrow
I wish you would ended it today not tomorrow

I can't control  this things I am going through
I can't keep going on missing you

I wait by the phone for hours on end
What hoping wondering when

This pain is pure torcher  it's hell
A endless cycle I have grown to know well

The silence  cuts through me like a knife
I can't continue  living like this all my life

Wondering  what your doing and who your with
The not knowing worrying  myself to death

I get not even a thought in your mind
Not even a Mear second  of your precious  time

My heart and soul just won't let you go
No matter how many times I tell my self no

You go out and do as you please
I can't get out of bed just to weak in my knees

You took the life put of me the day you left
I just lay in bed cry scream and wept

I am slowly dying from a broken heart
My hope dream dissappear  with you lay torn apart

All the thing I used to love to do
I can't stand to do them because there's no you

I don't know how to move on with my life
The only thing I look forward  to was being your wife

Now I am just a empty shell
Walking around emotionless  in this place i call hell

I used to be the center or your world  it's true
Now I walk around in a dark planet because you had two

I don't need a response to this
I just need you and you don't miss

I never wanted money cards or rings
I wanted time efforts  you know priceless things

I don't know if I will heal what's been broke
OR how long on tears I can choke

I just want to be you thing that matters
Just like before it was broken and tattered 

Everything's out of my control I know
But it's killing me you ran away and let go

I hate I can't move past this fall
I hate I still love most of all

You will always have my heart it's true
But now that your gone I don't know what I shall do

I can't eat all I want to do is sleep
I lay in my bed and weep  and weep

I understand you could take this anymore and go
Now I am left the one crying out like Edgar Allan poe

I hope you find me still in your heart
A happy me before my world fell apart

I don't know what else to say
I just wish I could have made you stay