Surfing

I surf through television channels to avoid facing my relationship dismantle. 

I scan endless book pages to avert realization that my my heart, mind, and soul are now in iron clad cages.

Distraction I relentlessly search. 
Silence is what I fear most. 

A once fantasied happily ever after. 
A life that was full of laughter.

I cannot reside alone with my thoughts.
I'm tongue tied. Stomach in knots. 
So I browse and I seek as my thoughts attempt to sneak away from this diversion.  
My mind is longing an excursion
Away from this unrelenting pain. 
Terrible thoughts I must try and abstain.