You entered my life and created a world

A life of perfection and a future arose

I had it all but was not ready

So lost it all in a selfish millisecond,

Now ten years later I still regret 

Like a medieval black sickness 

I wish to forget,

I'd do anything to rewind a decade or more

But knowing your with him hurts even more

Life stretched forth and I'm trapped within

I am destined to live and repent my sin, 

I saw you one day in a bad situation

And all I could do was look away 

Just to hide my fear, 

I always wondered what you would say

If only you knew the truth I live with

Hundreds of miles away chocking on sickness,

I'm sorry for my sins so remove my guilt

I beg of you to relieve me from the pains within

The torture continues all from within

Yet I continue to punish myself from decade old guilt