honestly, the worst part is, i thought we were friends. 

i see that all of you are together, i act like i don't care, but i'm hurting.

it hurts because i genuinely thought the cliques were over - i guess not. 

the only thing i can do now is write and talk to ave: she knows what it feels like. its not fun. im tired of their bullshit. im tired of trying to believe we could ever be the same. man im so tired of thst feeling.