With every breathe I take you drag me down,
With every second I spend awake you force me to drown.
In my sorrow.
In my wounds.
I wonder if there'll be a tomorrow.
I'm in love.
With a boy.
He completes me, makes spending the days with you.
Bearable.
Doable.
Lovable.
But with every breathe I take is a fighting one.
Like two arms pulling me apart.
I wonder if he sees the pain that lies underneath.
Should I stay or should he leave?
I know I'll always love him,
even when he goes over seas.

Where is thou compassion?
Do I really make your life that terrible where you have to destroy mine?
Why can't you just leave me be?
Can't you see that I'm trying?!?
I want to be free
from you,
from this,
from ..
life.

You make my tears feel like acid,
and my words have no effect.
All I wanted was your grace,
but I feel dead I belong in a casket.
I cry mostly everyday now.
For you make it impossible to stop.
I only awake for the one I hold close to thee.
But even you wanna take that away.
What do I say?
I have nothing left to say.

I feel so empty.
WHy can't you just PRETEND to love me?
I'm sorry I remind you of your sister.
I never asked you to take me in.
I was ony a BABY.
You make me want to relaspe.
I'm trying to stay strong.
But..
I dont know if I can anymore.

I have nothing left to give.
I feel so done.
I wish nanna was here.
To see how "damaged" I am.
Mother like daughter.
Damaged.
Broken.
NO good.

I can't sleep for you remain in my dreams.
My nightmares are true.
I live them everyday.
The abuse just doesn't stop.
I just no longer tend to the bruises.
The only time I'm happy is with him.
But I shall not bring him in this.
Oh god..
My god.
donde esta tu?
I can't keep doing this.
I'll end up snapping.
I'll end up hurting.
Myself.
And everyone around me.
Please just make it stop.