I am tired of crying, of trying.

I am tired of not being able to express nor have.

You take everything expecting hurt to not come from your crushing silence.

Your silence says that I must take blame.

I must apologize for it was you who'd been done wrong.

While true your silence is not accepted.

Your silence will not be ignored as you have ignored me.

I will not beg nor plead for something you won't give.

I will not ask for forgiveness while your silence stands crushingly in the way.

Unforgiving silence.

And when you finally speak to only ask to talk to make yourself feel better.

To seek the pleasure given of my apologies to justify you weren't wrong.

To justify that your silence, your inactions weren't wrong.

"It was you who were wounded so your actions cannot be wrong, right?" Is what your questions, your statements seemed to say.

So suprised you were when I stated your silence, when I stated I would not beg, I would not apologize.

I will not apologize to someone only seeking to justify their actions.

I will not apologize to someone only seeking to make themselves feel better.

I am tired of being soothing.

I am tired of taking it high road.

I am tired of trying to give to people who will not give the slightest back to me.

So no. I will not, nor ever apologize to you again.