BETRAYAL 

let’s get one thing straight. I have changed. I am not the same girl I used to be. besides, I thought you loved the old me? I would have never cheated on you and you know it. I don’t know why you couldn’t have just asked me what happened, no you had to start making irrational conclusions based on observation. look. you don’t know the whole story. please do not see me as the slut. I did not purposely give away my modesty. it was stolen from me. you know my deepest darkest secrets. how dare you sit there and accuse me of not changing. Id like to believe I’ve changed a great deal over the past year and honestly, you would know this new me if you would have put in the effort. I tried to stay connected. you’re the one who gave up on me. not the other way around. you-left- ME! you left me. you broke your promise. I have not. how is it you cannot trust me and you’d assume the worst when I have yet to lie to you. you promised me always and forever. you promised me you’d never intentionally leave me. I guess what they say is true. some infinities are greater than others. if you don’t want to be friends, tell me. if you don’t love me, tell me. I’m so sick of playing the guessing game. everything would be so much more simpler if you’d just tell me how you feel. the week before we broke up, did you not love me? did you not think our relationship was worth fighting for? why’d you give up so easily? is that when you found out I was this bad person? is that what you tell yourself in order to make it hurt less? ‘just blame Brooke, she’s the one with all the issues anyways. I did nothing wrong’ is that your mentality?! I am not a bad person. I’ve spent so much time trying to reinvent myself. I thought I was good. thank you for reminding me of how useless and horrible I truly am. I worked so hard trying to fix myself, to be a better version of myself and I see it was all a waste. I am horrible. I am selfish, evil, promiscuous. and I am so so sorry. i thought I had fixed all that. matter of fact, I did. i guess you just automatically see me in this bad light and there’s nothing I can do about it. I guess you never truly loved me.