letting go of alcohol is difficult but id rather be able to live my life without worrying about what bad decisions im going to make next while drunk. thats no way to live. i wish i was one of those people who has control when they drink. how do people drink so much as well as take all these drugs and continue to live. i feel like ill always be someone who doesnt have control when it comes to substances. i want to keep going i wont stop till im blacked out screaming and crying. this is just the way i am and i will always be this way which means if i want to be happy and live a long life i must give up the alcohol.