Its not easy, to know what I want

cause its not easy to say what is inside

cause its not easy to forgive u for ur sins

and its not easy to let go of everything.

 

Mercy, and compliacated it all appears

Never would have let myslef here

Though, stil, I am ready to jump once more

cause sometime u are more than enough than the whole lot.

 

But I still cannot let go of few things

as they scream in my head and make me sing

not the song of joy but if sorrow;

you wouldn't know or ever will I let you know.

 

One thing I want from my life now - 

that I never stumble or need there.

But its so hard to unleash ur wings and fly

when the weather's so stormy & its ur first try.

 

I miss myself the way back then

and that girl is lost, I dont remember when.

When was the last time her two parts agreed; 

When Heart said yes and Brain couldn't disagree.

 

~NJ