Filled with sadness..filled with hate....anger brews inside. Even though I'm doing for others...they are in for a horrible ride....why do i feel this way it's not how i want to be but i dont know how to stop....i tell myself its a new day but then the hammer drops....i want to go back to happiness....i think that i once knew, where anger, hatred, sadness never used to brew...I'm good to no-one the way i am not even to myself, i wish i could just put these feelings high upon a shelf, I'm praying God you'll hear me now and help me make a change....i cant go on much longer inflicting misery and pain, the hate runs deep in to my soul which others may not see...for the one i a truly hate the most is actually just me!