Not This Way (Z) (11/20/17)
I still scroll your page
Keeping my distance
I cry, but not because I'm hurt
My tears are for you
My hope is for you
My person is better for loving you
So for that, if that person isn't me for you
Acceptance is necessary
You are my life, my soul, my love
I never cared if others are in your life
As long as they made you happy
I guess I'm just sad
That I can no longer make your heart sing
You hurt so much
I know that pain
My ability to put myself aside for you
Is unmatched
You are the most important person in my life
My longest friend
My longest lover
I know you never meant to hurt me
Or anyone
I forgave you before you apologized
Oh, my love,
You deserve every kindness
and I gave you very little in the end
Miscommunication can be damaging
We never meant to hurt each other
Lovers never do
You are worth more than I can give
But give me a chance
Please
Just talk to me
I don't to lose you
Not this way
Not ever