Does she know?

I log onto Facebook 

I go onto your page.

I see her. 

And I think.....

Does she know about me?

Does she know about all your lies?

Does she know how I craved your attention?

Does she know how many hours we would spend talking about our lives, our dreams, and OUR future?

Does she know how many times you told me you loved me?

Does she know you just wanted to have fun and i wanted a relationship?

Does she know how much time I spent into you?

Does she know that I had to watch you love someone else?

Does she know i wasn’t good enough?

Does she know I almost sacrificed my friends and family for us?

Does she know you shattered me?

Does she know all the hours I cried?

Does she know how i couldn’t ever look myself in the mirror because you took away my value?

Does she know how hard it took me to love another man?

Does she know I still have to fight the bad habits you created?

Does she know you never really apologized?

Does she know you only wanted to get rid of our memories?

Does she know that you let our friendship die?

Does she know you’re ashamed of me?

Does she know how easily you went forward while I tried to drown in my sorrows?

Does she know that I’m better than all that?

Does she know that I don’t need that shit?

Does she know that I don’t need you?

Does she know I am stronger now?

Does she know I still struggle?

Does she know I am still better?

No. 

Probably not. 

She probably doesn’t even know my name.

But I know.

I know.

I know everything.

And you do too.