(I'm sorry for posting this but I write about the things that I'm feeling and right now this is 100% of how I feel.)

 

My heart is beating out of my chest

And I can't catch my breath

My arms gone completely numb again

I'm praying to God I don't believe in

For this maybe the end me I'm only 23

 

When Blink-182 said that no one likes you

When you're 23 I didn't think

It would be my own body trying to kill me

I can't walk anywhere without my heart feeling like it's getting tighter

 

I have so many things unsaid

I'm scared that I'm going to die before I hit 26

It was never part of the plan for me to get this bad off

I'm so scared that I actually made a doctor's appointment

I didn't go to the doctors or when I was bleeding out everywhere

I'm done crying from the pain

 

If I die now what the hell do I even leave behind

I know I've never meant anything to anyone

Can I live long enough just to make some change in someone's life?