My heart became guarded 

And it should have never started 

But it did 

And we felt what we felt 

I knelt at your side and kissed 

You sweetly 

And warmed you inside 

With abundant love 

Even as I tell you no

I lean into your arms 

Make you hold me 

Sipping hot cocoa 

I kiss your face 

Push you away 

Tell you I’ve moved on 

But you know it’s not true 

It will always be you 

The others will never compare 

You know you’re a rare beast 

The only one I wanted to keep 

I never could tell you what I think 

But in my head I’m screaming

I love you as loud as I can 

I’m pawing at your heart 

Listen to my eyes 

not my mouth